Growing up I always had a passion for music. I played trumpet for a while and then some guitar, never really thought to make a career of it. But there is something about music that ignites a passion within me and it seems like it has helped me heal. There is one song that really hit me hard during this past year. It is “Impossible” by Lacey Sturm. These lyrics identified so much with what I was feeling and still feel.
I often felt like I couldn’t make it another [insert any amount of time here]. Some days it felt like I could barely make it through minute-by-minute let alone an hour without the wrenching pain that was within me. I wanted nothing more for it to stop but I knew I had to keep going. I had to continue living, even if it wasn’t really me. Every day I sang along with this song. In a way it helped me become stronger. Now that I’m looking back, so much more time has passed than I ever thought I would make it through. This song explains perfectly how I feel. To me every day is a miracle because a part of my life died that day. I didn’t think I could go on without him. I know he wouldn’t want me to wallow. He would want me to live life to the fullest just as he did. He may not be here physically, but I can sense him encouraging me to carry on. And that is what I intend to do. So to honor him I keep going, I keep doing. Every day is a new day filled with new beginning’s, new memories, new possibilities.
Dealing with grief is different for everyone so I’m sharing two of my previous post’s just in case you find them helpful as well: Dealing with Grief: Things That Helped Me and Dealing with Grief: Things that helped part 2.
Are there any songs that have gotten you through tough times?