I’ve noticed that if I keep myself distracted I feel better overall. I’ve been treating this a lot like a deployment. Staying busy and doing things that make me happy. When Chris was deployed both times, I spent a lot of my time in school completely focused on that. I know it helped me a lot, so I’ve been trying to use that same concept.
I have done some journaling.
Since I can’t talk to him, I write him letter’s. It helps me process things by getting it out somehow. After we got engaged (the first time), I started a journal of letters to him with the intent of presenting it as a gift once we got married. Something I continued up until a little bit before we split up. Once we got back together I pretty much picked up where I left off. I wanted so badly to read those letters to him while he was in the hospital. But the opportunity never presented itself, because I couldn’t bear to leave his side. Time was so precious, I practically lived at the hospital the entire time he was there.
So between the journaling and dabbling in project’s I’m staying busy.
Finding new/old hobbies.
I draw and paint every now and then.. I realize that it really helps me deal with my emotions now. (I’ll have a fun project coming up soon that I’ll post about, keep on the lookout for it). I’ve also started teaching myself how to do hand lettering. It helps me get a break from the computer or TV and gives my eyes a bit of a rest. I’ve started reading more too, which is good. Just little things here and there that I either used to do or I’m trying out for the first time.
What are somethings that have helped you?