Growing up I always had a passion for music. I played trumpet for a while and then some guitar, never really thought to make a career of it. But there is something about music that ignites a passion within me and it seems like it has helped me heal. There is one song that really hit me hard during this past year. It is “Impossible” by Lacey Sturm. These lyrics identified so much with what I was feeling and still feel.
I often felt like I couldn’t make it another [insert any amount of time here]. Some days it felt like I could barely make it through minute-by-minute let alone an hour without the wrenching pain that was within me. I wanted nothing more for it to stop but I knew I had to keep going. I had to continue living, even if it wasn’t really me. Every day I sang along with this song. In a way it helped me become stronger. Now that I’m looking back, so much more time has passed than I ever thought I would make it through. This song explains perfectly how I feel. To me every day is a miracle because a part of my life died that day. I didn’t think I could go on without him. I know he wouldn’t want me to wallow. He would want me to live life to the fullest just as he did. He may not be here physically, but I can sense him encouraging me to carry on. And that is what I intend to do. So to honor him I keep going, I keep doing. Every day is a new day filled with new beginning’s, new memories, new possibilities.
Dealing with grief is different for everyone so I’m sharing two of my previous post’s just in case you find them helpful as well: Dealing with Grief: Things That Helped Me and Dealing with Grief: Things that helped part 2.
Are there any songs that have gotten you through tough times?
I got to see Muse this past Saturday and it was AMAZING! I went with some of my co-workers and we had a lot of fun. But first, let us take a selfie!!
While we were waiting for the show to start we enjoyed some beverages, peanuts and pretzel bites and sat around and talked.
Here is a picture before everyone showed up, once the lights went out it started to fill up. We had a really good view of the whole stage. I’m just glad I didn’t have to stand behind super tall people like I did at Not So Silent Night, which I went to a few days before.
Phantogram went on first, and I really enjoyed their music.
Then Muse made their way on, and holy cow I can not explain how epic this show was! It sounds like I’m exaggerating… but seriously, I have never experienced anything like it. It was so well planned and so well put together. This picture above definitely shows a tiny glimpse of how well the graphics were and how they were displayed. It changed with every song and there were even droids that flew about the arena.
Here are some videos that I was able to take. Sorry if they are a little shaky. I was jamming out on some of them and forgot that I was recording haha.
Annnnnnd, my snapchat story from that night with an extra video of me being mad at Busa lol.
Videos don’t do it justice, but at least it is a small glimpse of what happened. I’m so happy I was able to go, if you ever get a chance to go… DO IT. Best thing ever!